A simple text

“I love you S. L. you know you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me”

It’s amazing how much one thoughtful text can take away so much of the resentment and fear.

Maybe we will be okay.

Maybe I am enough.

I know he wants 1 or 2 more kids, and it had me worried that he wouldn’t stay with me if I decided I couldn’t handle going through it all again.

But this small act of showing me love makes me feel like he would choose me, us, our family of 3 over a (potentially) larger family with someone else.

BTW, he never told me that he would leave me for anything, he is not pressuring me at all for more kids when I am clearly not ready, these are just all those stupid thoughts that I put into my own head.

I hope that I get more of these reminders, because I could sure use them.

A simple text.

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5 thoughts on “A simple text

  1. My Perfect Breakdown September 20, 2018 / 9:34 pm

    I love the text.
    I also have to say, I understand how your brain can create those type of thoughts based in fears and not rational thinking. Have you thought about telling your husband about your fears? I find talking about my thoughts like this always helps. ❤️

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    • sbach1222 September 21, 2018 / 11:14 am

      I have, he always assures me that it isn’t the case. But they creep back in sometimes.

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  2. AKL September 25, 2018 / 8:46 pm

    Hang in there! Just remember that there are seasons in life and seasons in relationships. If you’re going through a tough time now just remember a new season will soon be on its way. xx

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  3. lifeoutoforder92 September 26, 2018 / 4:48 pm

    After we lost Nyla I asked my hubs if he would still be with me if I didn’t ever want to try again….and he actually sat there and really thought about it. It was the longest few minutes of my life. He did say yes, that he loved me for me, but I was so afraid. We have been though our highs and rock bottom lows, but we are still together and finally ready to try again–you will get there one day!

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